Grateful! :D

I am too ashamed to say it loudly or tell this person directly but this is not something shameful. I can assure that. :))

This was before the story began...
I feel so much excitement when looking at his social media's pages, reading his status, commenting on them, chatting with him, reading his jokes, imagining he's right before me telling them loudly, texting with him, arranging time for a first date, meeting him for the first time, spending that day together, keep chatting with him almost every night, texting frequently day and night, starting to feel the 'cupid's work', starting to call him 'Tweety' because he's similar with it, arranging the following dates, telling the true feeling and finally declaring that him and I being 'us' on that Saturday afternoon.

For me, those moments wouldn't be something easy to forget. I cannot remember when I can be so sure. I've known him for more than a year. I know it's not common puppy love. i can feel it. I start to love him because I've realized that I can take his good and the bad.
Sometimes we fight for any small even tiny reason but then we get even closer. He's there. Yes, he's always there. Right there, in my mind and heart and never want to be erased or replaced. I already miss him since we wave goodbye. I love when he’s smiling, doing his work, picking me up, telling his favorite songs and movies, taking pictures with his camera, touching my head and recently I love watching him sleeping.

Yeah, I cannot remember when exactly I feel this way. As I know, I don’t want to be with any other, but HIM!

Specially dedicated for my Dhanang Tri Widiyanto.

No More 'Take it or Leave it'

I thought it was fair, in fact it isn't. I have been criticized but it's totally okay. In my last post, I stated this phrase 'Take it or Leave it' which I realized (actually, I had been realized) it's not something worth to ever thinking about. :D

If anyone reads closely to my last post, they might understand what I was writing about and what obviously 'Take it or Leave it' meant. To be honest, I wrote it because I was bored, mad and totally tired about the idea of discussing the old pasts. It seemed right to me at that time. Though, it's false.

One said, the one who could finally bring round me.

"If you always think of breaking this bond, I bet we'll come to an end soon. Problems are something we need to overcome and find the solutions for them. Do you want it comes to an end?"

The answer is NO. A 100% NO.
For the one who's making me feel calm as well as soundless before him, hopefully I won't think about that anymore.

So sorry because I don't erase the post as I told you, I think I just need some revisions and clarifications.
:)

And this, only to him --> XOXO


Runaprilia

TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT! (Had been revised)

The last post was November 10th, 2010. Hmm..it's been a long time. And now, I'm gonna post about the 'heart song'. I'm so sorry it's not about something you need to read, it's not something informative too. I was thinking that I think I need to write this. Yeah, women. They like to share these things.

It's what I think that leads me to write today.

"Everyone lives with their past. The past, it would never disappear. It is just kept inside. No matter how hard everyone try to erase it, it would just be there. Why? Because it's a part of life and moments that everyone has experienced. So, if anyone out there mind about this thing, hey! you have this too."

Don't let the past ruins the present. If it happens, surely it's something out of control. Because I live with that. Try to always remember it? Sorry to say, I don't. From now on, I tell you, I have pushed them deep down inside.



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10 To...

1) To a friend of mine: What I'm afraid of for many times and chances happened last night. I knew it would, but still, this ego came to lead the way. I should've not done this. Actually, not this, but these!.So from now on, I'm so sorry i won't meet you, for the sake of your own goodness.

2) To the most dangerous and fabulous woman in my world: I had a little conversation with my mom. That time, not the first time, but it would always be the beginning of the more little 'conversations'. I felt that she finally think that I'm not her little daughter anymore. We talked to each other like a woman. We talked about my future. Yes, my future. Till now, I just can't convince myself whether I have found the one or not. The conversation done with this conclusion "At least dear, you know what to do and go for it!". She smiled. Mom, you're rocks!!

3) To the shell of my happiness and sorrows: For my dad and lil' brother. I don't remember when actually I felt this way. I'm so thankful having you both. You guys made my day brighter. Dad you're soo cooperative!, Dek, why did you act like a baby brother around me?! Do you miss me that much? hahaha. I know you miss me a lot!! and I'm here. :D

4) To the books I've read: Thanks for a bunch of any inspirations I can take from you.

5) To the movies I've watched: Thanks for some energies you've delivered.

6) To the school: Thanks for making me have short nights recently.

7) To the PPL's friends: Guys! we're almost done the mission. Keep on rockin' the picket room! LOL

8) To my engineer out there: we did great job so far. Hope, this will result the best for both of us.

9) To my beloved friends (6 amazing girls, awesome DIK A'07: source of inspirations happen in an actual time and place. The future leaders! Amin.

10) To life: I'm running my own paths, a little and long path with full of guiding lights, hopefully. Keep friendly with my decisions. I still need you 'till I can reach people' happiness and pride.

Note: I did not arrange these in order. No jealousy, please. J

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ALHAMDULILLAH...

ALHAMDULILLAH...

Rasa bersyukur karena bisa dipertemukan kembali oleh bulan penuh berkah dan ampunan, Ramadhan. Kalo ketemu orang dengan nama Ramadhan2nya sih lumayan sering. Hehe.

Jujur, cukup merasa disayangkan rasa-rasa dulu dalam menyambut bulan ramadhan agak tidak terasa. Mungkin karena euphorianya sendiri kurang ya dari orang2 jadi kurang berasa. Kurang excited gimana gitu jadinya. But well, here it is! It is coming and we'll make it better! Have to. :D

Banyak berbuat baik maka akan semakin baik kualitas hidup dan pribadi kita. Bulan Ramadhan adalah salah satu bulan yang paling ditunggu, karena pahala serasa diobral. Serius! Gampang banget ngedapetinnya. Berbuat baiklah dan sebagaimana mestinya. Allah sendiri yang menganugerahkan pahalanya lho, so don't ever think to miss it! :D

Banyak hal baik yang dirasakan datang kembali di kehidupan saya. Hoho. Pertama, kadar kesabaran jadi naik level, padahal cuma sedikit. Eits! tapi itu perubahan. :). Kedua, toleransi. Hidup diluar zona aman a.k.a sama orang tua membuat saya harus lebih berpikir dan bertindak lebih untuk 'kita' daripada 'saya'. (Norak bgt baru ngekost pertama kali, hehe). Ketiga, beberapa hari dalam awal puasa ini bakal dihabiskan sama keluarga, bikin kangen! Sholat maghrib berjama'ah disambung sholat isya dan tarawih. I'll miss this moment kalo udah pindah ke camp perjuangan (kostan-red). Keempat, tadarusan lagi. Alhamdulillah. Sudah berapa lamakah saya tidak menyentuh dan membaca kitab suci itu?! Ampun deh! berasa bukan orang islam yang beriman. Islam doang mah banyak. hehehe.

Yang terakhir, saya sangat ingin menunaikan apa yang sudah saya niatkan. Bantulah hamba ya Allah..Semoga puasa dan ibadah tahun ini jauh lebih baik dari yang sebelum-sebelumnya. Amin.

HAPPY FASTING ALL! Mari berbuat baik sebanyak-banyaknya!!! :D

Runaprilia@Runateahouse

Perfection?

With a bar of chocolate and winamp playlists are playing, I'm trying to express what has been in my mind recently, the light one, about the standard of perfection..(my version, the result of not-seriously thinking process).

Does is really exist?

Yes, It does. It differently exists before anyone's eyes. It is, because the standard of perfection is made by people itself. Let's believe to a common phrase "Nobody's perfect". God never created the creatures as perfect as the creator, God itself.

How did people make it?

People who made it, I think, realized that they are also imperfect. So, by pretending there must be something or someone is perfect out there, they would feel the energy of the perfection. Agree? Disagree? It's your choice readers, I'm just expressing my own thought. ^^v. Some people when they see or find something or someone, they would say, "Owh! It's perfect!, or he's/she's perfect!". Do they need any permission from others about it? I don't think so. Once they said it, It always be that way. They've created their own standard of perfection.

Hmm..Finding out the perfection isn't easy for some people. They might make some selections based on their view about it. They might make some comparisons to get the perfect perfect. And, I think that standard of perfection is tentative. Some say today it's perfect, tomorrow it's imperfect, the day after tomorrow it's less perfect. There might also some influences which take part in the deciding process of whether this is perfect or not. Time, the mood, knowledge which deformed into a personal view are some factors.Till now, I can't find the institution which dealing with the standard of perfection. It's different to National Standardization Board, of course.

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The Lyrics...

"Late nights when I stayed up late, all I do is wait and wait. You're never coming home to me. That's the hardest thing to see." All American Reject-Wind Blows.

"Then the fire fades away, but most of everyday is full of tired excuses. But it's too hard to say I wish it were simple, but we give up easily. You're close enough to see that you're the other side of the world to me. KT Tunstall-Other Side of The World.

"Kucoba hapuskan rasa, rasa dimana kau melayang jauh dari jiwaku juga mimpiku." Sheila On 7-Kita

"Lupakan saja diriku. Bila itu bisa membuatmu kembali bersinar dan berpijar seperti dulu kala. Caci maki saja diriku. Bila itu bisa membuatmu kembali bersinar dan berpijar seperti dulu kala. Dan...bukan maksudku...bukan inginku melukaimu sadarkan kau di sini kupun terluka melupakanmu...menepikanmu, maafkan aku...". Sheila On 7-Dan.

"Dinda apa kabar kau di sana. Lelahkah menunggu berkelana. Lelahkan menunggu kau di sana." Sheila On 7-Bertahan Disana.

"The stars lean down to kiss you, and I lie awake I miss you, pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere, cause I’ll doze off safe and soundly, but I’ll miss your arms around me. I’ll send a postcard to you dear cause I wish you were here. I’ll watch the night turn light blue but it’s not the same without you because it takes two to whisper quietly. The silence isn’t so bad, 'til I look at my hands and feel sad cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly." Owl City-Vanilla Twilight.

They inspire me recently. Well, I'm just being honest, at least to myself. :). Can you see the similarity among them? Enjoy!

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